These are my last days in the Netherlands because I'm going back to Chile in 3 days and can't deal with it, like common, who can deal with leaving their boyfriend for months not knowing what could happen?, exactly, nobody.

This is the bad thing about distance relationships, the insecurities appear for both of you, fights that don't end easily like they should because when you're close with each other it's a lot easier to fix problems, because the most of the time are just stupid things, but still, everything its harder, even the things that should be easy start being harder.

Just today was everything so easy, just talking and cuddling make everything so good, and I realize it because I can just be happy doing that and anything else.

Suddenly I started feeling depressed because of leaving him so the drama started but i don't like feeling like that so I proposed to go to the woods to walk, and like if it was magic everything just vanished, all my momentary depression, just doing things like that with him it's all what I need to feel better.


So of course we just tried to make it last the longer possible, fighting with the cold, just hugging and seeing how the time pass and enjoying the time together, I just wish all this was that easy.



I just wish we were together, enjoying each other company, just like we always do, and don't have to do anything else, but still somehow in that moment I felt like we could figure everything up, like we were invincible, like nothing could tear us apart, I just wish I would still feeling that way when I'm gone.

All I want is to be together, we have to figure it out, since I start going to the university this year I will be busy, we will have no time for Skype or type so yes, it will be hard like really hard , But I'm sure we can make it work, we always do.